I am going to use this premise for the next year.  I am going to assume that I can have any girl that I want.  I just need to know how to play the game.  If I was playing World of Warcraft online (a geeky Dungeon and Dragon’s type game), and I wanted to kill a massive dragon…I would not be able to kill it until I leveled my character enough in the game.  Simply put..if I was a level 10 Warrior trying to kill a level 60 Dragon, I would get my ass whooped.

I don’t think it is any different with woman.  I need to be a level 60 Man to slay a level 60 woman.  Right now, I would say I am at about a 30.  I have access to level 30 women.  So I am going to level up my character.  I need to be in better shape..mentally and physically.  I need to get my confidence to a new high.  I need to have my finances in order, so as to prove I can take care of a family.  I need to keep my social habits in check (booze and pot).  I need to increase my sexual prowess.  I need to level my “Warrior” everyday.

Constant improvement is the key.  So today..I am starting simply.  I am going to clean the hell out of my room.  Top to bottom.  It is my starting place in the morning and hopefully it will be where I am bringing woman home at night.  My theory is that if you have a messy room that subconsciously I will be hesitant to bring a woman home.  If it is spotless..with clean sheets, smells great, well lit, with the proper books on the shelf it will increase my odds.

So that is it.  In World of Warcraft terms…I am going to do a “quest” that involves my room.  I have to turn it into a seduction lair.  In return, I will get some experience, new books, new sheets and more importantly..a clean room that I can plot from.  I am starting at the beginning here people.  Seems basic..but I want a solid groundwork.

Tomorrow I hit the streets and practice talking to strangers.

I am 39 years old. I have had many relationships and they have all failed for various reasons. In the past, I have tried to pin all of my relationship failures on my partners. Sure, I admitted to having a hand in it, but ultimately..they were to jealous, over-bearing, crazy. I have recently been dating and have found that maybe I am the problem. My confidence is low. I am coming across as needy and am acting like a pussy on dates with woman and am appearing way out of my league.

Ultimately, that is the answer. THEY ARE OUT OF MY LEAGUE. That is why I was with the girls that I dated in the past. They were wiling to date me. Which means I am selecting from a pool of woman who may not be as amazing as the one’s out of my league.

So, what do I do? I want to find the girl of my dreams. Well I need to find a way, within a year that no girl is out of my league. I am going to blog about my progress, my dates, my failures, my successes and hopefully along the way there will be some laughs and an improvement in my self esteem.

I start tomorrow. I have some ideas about how I am going to go about it. Stay tuned!